Weeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!

SHE'S BACK!!!! SHE'S BACK WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!
can't wait to see her weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! finals faster over pwis!! wedding faster over pwis!!!!!!

excited-ness!!!!!!!

hahahahahahahahahahahahaha! i'm very hyper now i cannot study! I CANNOT STUDY! hola espanyol!

*jumps up and down*

sorry la I announce for you adi hahahahahahaha too excited d kray? boo!
bye bye!

***

please to all, i am not emo-ing la haiyor! life has never been so beautiful ok? but even a beautiful life is never perfect so sometimes got ups and downs ok?

and I have a little secret which I want to keep to myself for a while =) you know sometimes you'll have things that you just dont want to tell anybody? You just want to keep it to yourself? Well I don't always have this feeling but now that I have, please just let me keep it to myself for a while. and I said "for a while". Maybe days after, weeks after, months after or even years after, I will eventually reveal ok? but just not now. if its sth good, let me have this joy to myself for some time 1st then i'll share the joy. if its sth bad, just let me drown in my own sorrow coz no one will be able to help.

peace!

***

ok i need to start studying for finals which starts... TOMORROW!!!!!
here's the thing... finals are starting from tomorrow then tuesday, thursday, friday and next thursday.

I can feel the holidays coming but I can't feel finals coming hehe.

xoxo!

苦？

如果失去是苦，

你怕不怕付出 ？

如果迷乱是苦，

你会不会选择结束？

如果追求是苦，

你会不会选择执迷不悟 ？

如果分离是苦，

你要向谁倾诉 ?

好多事情都是后来才看清楚,

好多事情当时一点也不觉得苦

但是即使再苦，她 也只能选择忍。

直到泪把苦都带走。也只能忍。

Tired

I didn't know it can be so exhausting.
Its exhausting because sometimes you want to do something but you cant.
Its exhausting because you just cant stop doing whatever you're doing, even though you know you should stop long time ago. Just like an idiot.
Its exhausting because you know that all effort you put in will not pay off in the end. and yet you're still doing it like an idiot.
Its exhausting because you always cannot finish your sentence because you care too much and you're like a coward.
Its exhausting because its just very very exhausting la!

I'm very tired. Mentally tormented. Lets wish that I won't go crazy ^^

I'll just let the river flows in me, in you. =) maybe this way, I won't be so tired anymore. *pray pray*

i need a break. have a break. have a kit kat.

***

oh i'm done having my break! =)
heeheehee! I'm totally not lost =)

思绪在好无防备的情况下被搞砸了。
但已很快地又整理好了。
是逃避，是莫视，
是勇敢，是坚持，
是愚蠢，是幼稚，
是逻辑，是冲动。
但是还是整理好了。眼泪，也该笑了。

不知道你在逃什么
再逃越远也不能解决事情
彼此都有感觉
错过了一次，做错了决定
上天又再安排一次的机会
不要再错过了
因为这样会让连机会也没有的人
更难堪

Wish

I don't always get to make wishes. I only make wishes on my birthday and I wish upon a star I like which I spotted from the dark sky when I can't sleep at night.
Whenever I get a chance to wish, I wish carefully. I don't wish for more clothes, I don't wish to be rich, I don't wish for a Volkswagen.
and for two consecutive birthdays, I've wished for the same thing. And I haven't been wishing something for myself.

So just for today, let me have a little wish for myself, please?

and please let this wish come true, please?

A Very Monkey Post

what did you get from the above pictures?

kok wui is a monkey. *serious face*

I bet 21 years ago, on this day,

the world added in
a new member in the monkey society,
a new recruit in the donkey society,
a pro member of simply-give-ppl-names club,
a great leader of heart breaker's club,

the world also just became
a tad bit noisier,
a tad bit louder,
a tad bit shakier,
a tad bit more bizarre,
a tad bit crazier.

and its filled with,
a tad bit more laughter,
a tad bit more wild-ness,
one more great leader,
one more roaring thunder,
one more hamsap wolf,

and it sums up to adding in
the only one and only
Choo Kok Wui!

HAPPY 21st HATCHDAY !!!

knowing you was like a pain in the ass at first but I guess its a blessing in disguise after all! which required one litre of tears XD
anyhooooo, nuff said of those serious stuff I have to say
here are some not-so-serious stuff!
stop playing with your twin and do your thesis or the Genie, I, will FAIL you!
heeeeeeeee!
I'm sure you're having a great time so
HAVE A BLAST ON YOUR DAY!

~xa with love~

Waltz

I want to dance waltz to So Close.

The music play for only two
So close together when I'm with you
So close to feeling alive

So close was waiting, waiting here with you
and now forever I know all that I wanted to hold you so close

We're so close to reaching the famous happy end
And almost believing that this was not pretend
Let's go on dreaming for we know we are
So close, So close and still so far...

*wipes tears*

---
I cannot comprehend my feeling right now. Its happy and sad at the same time, stressful but not stressful at the same time. So to sum it up, I guess I'm emo. again. and I wana waltz (not with just anybody). Very badly. I'm serious. When I dreamt last night, I dreamt about dancing waltz in a beautiful gown in a grand ballroom. When I woke up, the waltz image came popping out of my mind until I couldn't go back to sleep. *whatthehelliswrongwithyouAlexaGoh!*

back to Microsoft Words T__T
nites world.

Pills

Today I finally said "I give up! Pa I wana see doctor!" After five solid days of flu and fever and sexy man voice cause by sore throat, after five solid days of mum saying "go see doctor laaaa" after five solid days of finishing packets of tissue to blow nose, after five solid nights of nose block that made me feel like inventing a nose-vacuum cleaner, after five solid days of meehoon soup and porridge... I GIVE UP! *waves white flag*

The reason why I've been delaying to go to the clinic is I simply don't like the doctor poke here and there coz its very geli I always feel like laughing when he does it. And, I use to recover these small sickness myself by just getting medicine from the pharmacy! But not this time, old d haaaaaaaaaihh.

The ultimate reason is....

THESE!

The doctor will just prescribe at least four types of pretty colourful pills and at the end of the day, I never get to finish them. And I hate these pills *pukes*

Now its even worse. Besides the pills, he gave me a bottle of yucky pink syrup to gargle to get back my feminine voice. 3-4 times a day somemore someboday kill meh~

See la Alexa Goh! sick somemore la! No birthday celebration! No dark chocolate! No biscuits! No mood to talk to people! No this no that! raaaaaaawwrr! I wana be healthy again pleaaase. I wana talk again pleaaase I dowana be mute! T__T

but anyhow, this post is another procrastination post. How can I be too free until sick oso wana rant. You should know better. The nearer the assignment due date, the more post on the blog =)
At least I'm still sitting here typing! boo >.<

and pss, I'm sad coz u're sad. So don't be sad okay? smile!! XD

Nites world
loves~

18th

I mean, on the 18th ^^
This year's birthday is bloody sueh i tell you! The night before 18th, I caught a flu and when I woke up the next morning, which was the big 18th morning, I got fever and I can hardly eat and speak. T___T

It was the usual Tuesday when we had long day at college as usual.

Anyhow, birthday breakfast was at Jaya 1 and its on Sara although we wasted food T__T Thanks a bunch anyways! *hugs*

Then lunch/dessert was on Sarah Tay. We had it in Mango Mania and I could only have Mango Shake. But it was a nice place to sit down and chit chat. The food wasn't the best but very innovative. Its all very mango XD

THANKY!

the two I love.

and on the night of 18th, the Ah Donk drove us up to Look Out Point together with flu bug and fever bug and dizzy-ness. The ride was quite long but I got to see Cheras, which, I seldom seldom set foot on. I still don't know how to get there though XD

The short walk up to Gasoline was super nice coz there's fresh air! *breathes in and out deeply*

then WE'RE ON TOP OF THE WORLD!!! WEEEEEEEE! *siok sendiri*

Just before the sun set~

a bit darker
totally awesome! *ignore the picture quality*
the yang hebat choo kok wui yang tersampat!
THANKS!
for everything and I'm totally loving the wish voucher *evil laugh*
and thanks for just being you =)
***

I tell you, being sick on the week of your birthday is totally not fun! Can't eat this, can't eat that, can't go here, can't go there! raaaaaawrr!! I'm dying here T__T
but still, I'm grateful for everything and (pss there's more to come, no? *grins*)

~YES I AM GRATEFUL!~

19th

So Good. So Much. So Share.So it was two weeks before my 19th and Dai Bo Hua was the first to book me away on the Saturday before my birthday.

I thought we're just going to have a casual dinner but it turned out to the my most embarrassed night of the year *grins*
Big girl standing tall telling the whole world its her night!
The funniest part is I had to do a speech okay! Do you know what that means? an Impromptu Speech kay! its worse than Public Speaking class *shy*
and my speech was straight to the point...
"THANK YOU GUYS!"

see? damn chio =)
then there's a super yummy birthday cake made by DBH, Boom and DBH's sis which I never ever expected.
Damn yummy until Yong Chen kept saying he wana marry DBH's sis! funny sial!
the blowing-candle-face is really not my prettiest face I tell you and yet the whole restaurant witnessed. *lucky the leng zai sitting at the corner ciao adi XD*

happee happee! *claps*

love ya!
there the wonderful yummy cake! with Boom!
utar rocks too kay boo!dai bo hua~ thanky!and everybody who paid for my meal and present =) i had a great night! *hugs*

every wishes counts =)
thanks to everybody who greeted.

Saturday Morning

Yesterday morning was a meaningful one =)

Woke up reluctantly at 7am to a drizzling morning with nice fresh air. After driving around KL to find the place, we finally arrived at the Malaysia Nature Society HQ. Greeted by dad's junior stuff, we went in to meet the rest.


Its Bovis Lendlease Malaysia Community Day. Around 20 underprivileged kids from Ti-Ratana joined us to explore the nature and do fun activities like mural painting and nature handicraft.

gathering and briefing

Uncle Dinesh giving speech

while we camwhored with Mum^^

and the day started! weeee!
Our group started with mural painting 1st.paint paint paint

the hornbill painted by Uncle Edwin's daughtersUncle Howard leaving the company's name on the cabin

Uncle dono-whats-his-name painting the earthDad painted the Tadbir with his colleagues! i'm impressed!

Me Mum Julius and Andrea and an auntie and a few kids did this wall =)
the creative corner by the kids~

aww so cute!!aww so cute! by Mum =.=

then the uncle dono-what's-his-name briefed the kids on safety before we went for the walk of nature trail
that's our guide Pasu explaining the route into the forest
and then in we went! weeee!
we saw leaves
flowers
fruits
scarce sunlight when we went in deeper into the forest
Auntie Pasu was never tired explaining everything.
Those brilliant kids pick up things very quickly too!
wild coconuts
and humongous wild Yam!
we also saw some insects. A huge spider and a super big lizard's nest with sooo many eggs in it! eeeew!

Slogan of the day: Take nothing out of the forest but pictures, leave nothing in the forest but footprints =)

Protect the Nature, Our Responsibility =)

Besides that, I had fun learning about photography and cameras from Uncle Clarence too! Who says working people are boring. Some of them get along well with the kids from Ti-Ratana and played with them!

Anyhow, I had fun in the morning. And I certainly had fun at night as well. A very early birthday celebration with DB Gang. Zillion thanks to them! muaackss!

Nites!
xoxo~

Seen it

Guys are pigs.

But there are two kinds of pigs.
One of them are the kind who will do anything, really, anything for a girl who doesn't even give a damn about his existence.
The other one are the one who are confuse pigs who don't know what they want and there's always some girls watching out for them. And all the confuse pigs do to the girls is they come as they like, go as they please.

and I've seen both types =)

cheer up pigs and girls! lol
I'm not being sexist but don't u agree there are really guys like that?!

Nites world~
xoxo~

Realization

I realize I haven't been a very strong girl for the past one year or so :S
I've been a strong girl before and I sorta got tired of being so strong? What am I talking about...
Anyways, yea... I have been weak and vulnerable and stubborn and stupid and lazy and care-less and selfish. aaaaahh! a total opposite of what I use to be.

I somehow got so sick of the use to be's wei. Maybe that's why all the things turn out this way today. I use to be courages and brave and just say whatever I feel. I don't anymore just because I'm sick of the use to bes. So stupid right! But I'd like to see a change. And I think I've changed for the worse haha! well not that bad but... haih.

Many people haven't been feeling ok. I hope things will turn out fine in the end for everybody =)
and I also hope the work load will just poof! disappear!

bye bye

Why

Whatever happened,
I'm glad.
But it would be nice,
If it was you.
***

At some point of time, I would like somebody to give me a hard slap for being unfair and selfish. I feel bad and I'm sorry. I'm not really grateful at all because I'm selfish and stubborn. I do not know how to control these thoughts and I don't like it intruding over and over again. It will hurt someone in the end and its not going to be me. So why can't it just go away?

And why is it you?

And again, at times like these, I wish you were there. Nobody else.

Full and Satisfied =)

First of all, a birthday shout out to SARAH TAY!

HAPPY 19TH Birthday Woman!!

you being nonsense and I enjoyed your nonsense haha XD

and this is the only picture of you and me >.<
anyways, you were one of the very first college mate I've met and I'm glad that we still hang out till today =)
love you lots woman! *hugs*
have a blast and remember, you're always an ADP-ian!
even though you're in BPsych now haha!

and this is you doing pedi heeeee!
***
and so, because prom is coming, I decided that I need to clean my toes a bit so...
Me and Sarah went to Color Culture in BV II for pedicure!

weeeeee! My first time kaaay heeeee *jakun-ess*
I can do manicure myself but definitely NOT pedicure boo !

So here it goes! My Upfront and Personal =)
wash feetclean shit
colored and dry toes
I didn't pay much attention except when the girl washed my feet. Its uber geli until I felt like kicking her haha. The rest of the time I was watching 岁月风云 on the tv haha!
After pampering my feet, it feels so clean! weeeee!

Then Sean picked me up and we had lunch at
smart Sean ordered the Xiu Long Bao! weeeeee!uber yummy kaaay!
so I was damn full and satisfied! =)

then I got conned to watch a horror movie. The last time I went to watch horror movie was when I was in Form 2 kaaaay! I didn't wana watch anymore after that!
So we were at the ticketing place choosing movie and it was sth like that:

Sean:"the coffin!"
Alexa:"What is it about? horror la!"
Sean:"Watch only"
Alexa:"I wana watch Mamma Mia u want?"
Sean: *shakes head*
Alexa:"Ya I know u dowan. That one? *points to a cantonese comedy*"
Sean: *laughs*
*walking towards the booth*
Alexa:"wei watch what?"
Sean:"The Coffin"
Alexa: "Its horror dowan I scared!"
Sean:"Its not horror la! scary only"
Alexa:"... ... ... *thinks hard about the story plot* it is horror la I scared la!"
*arrived ticket booth*
Alexa: *about to say sth*
Sean to the lady: "THE COFFIN!"
Alexa:*sei la sei la sei zao sei la >.<* Lady:"Kamu 18 kan?" Alexa: *wtf 18 somemore sei la must be vr scary d sei la sei la *

so The Coffin it is. And I only watched one third of the movie while Sean yawned through the movie HMPH!
The guy beside me slept and snored somemore while I was busy covering my eyes! HMPH!

The story plot was okay only la boo. I dono how scary it is coz I only watched one scary scene when the stupid guy lying in the coffin suddenly catch Karen Mok's hand who was standing beside the coffin crying T___T *heart attack*

***

At night, we, Sara, Sarah and I went to Delicious to have birthday dinner. Again, Full and Satisfied! weeeeeee! so full until we didn't have the hype to snap pictures anymore >.<>.<* but damn happy weeeeeee!

***

Lastly, I have a scary true story to tell myself. Something that horrified me until tears came to my eyes! boo!

So when Sean was looking for parking in Midvalley at the parking lot, we came to this lane and saw a few cars jamming up the lane.
When see clearly, the first car of the lane stopped for no reason and a lady opened the door and went out and squealed. She then went in and grabbed her big green beg and squealed again. Minutes later, a guard came and he somewhat looked like he's gesturing somebody out of the passenger seat. I didn't realize what was happening until I suspected something. Could this be one of the cases we always see in emails? where people hid in the passenger seat and kidnap you when you drive? Points a sharp knife at you and make you drive to the atm machine and withdraw all your savings? *gasp*

Then a guy in shirt came with two other workers who ronda-ronda in the parking lot. The guy opened the other door and took out a stick with sharp end and ordered the guy to come out. A short Indo guy had no choice and was forced to come out of the car >.<>.<>

CHECK YOUR BACK SEATS BEFORE YOU GO INTO YOUR CAR.
MAKE SURE NOBODY IS LURKING AROUND YOUR CAR BEFORE YOU GO INTO YOUR CAR.
LOCK THE DOOR ONCE YOU'VE GONE INTO THE CAR.

Be careful Ladies, and Gentlemen as well!!!

***

One last note, there's a big burnt hole in my pocket now. Or rather, my purse >.<
Tomorrow's prom! weeee! hope my tube dress doesn't drop hahaha!

Nites world! =)

Princess of the Day

On this day, a princess was born into the world.

Sara is the name and it simply means Princess.

So Sara = Princess, Princess = Sara.

So here is my princess friend, Sara. Turning 19 Today!

her signature action XD

we~go to college together and life is sooo not about college.
we~
chilled in Delicious *Is it just me, or we really look young in this pic?*

pergi menonton wayang
blowed bubbles~

camwhore-d in class

skip classes XD

and the list goes on.

College life wouldn't be the same without her.
So,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY Sara!!!!
who said "Trust the birthday girl the birthday girl is the smartest!" XD
a whole pink post dedicated to you!!

*hugs*

Tagged!

Tagged by Sarah Tay! weeeee!

1. Would you marry for money?

Definitely not! *horrified face* but it would be nice to have a rich husband whom I already love and being rich is secondary *dreams*

2. Have you had braces?
Nopes! =)

3. Could you live without a computer?

Can I guess.

4. If you could live in a different decade, which would it be?

:s Now is fine~

5. Do you drink enough water?

haha Nope! I'm always dehydrated haha!

6. Do you wear the shoes in the house or take em off?

Take em off. I'm not ang moh.

7. What are you favorite fruits?

Apple and Banana.

8. What is your favorite place to visit?

Ze Beach.

9. Are you photogenic?

People have been telling me yes. But I think it depends.

10. Do you dream in color or black and white?

Color. Eh I don't think I have black and white dreams before. >.<

11. Why do you take surveys?

I don't take surveys. If I do, means I have to.

12. Do you drink alcohol?

Occasionally.

13. What is the most beautiful language?

Chinese! or rather, Mandarin =)

14. Do you like being kissed when you're alseep?

If it wakes me up from my sweetest dreams then die la the kisser. But its sweet!

15. What do you like most : Sunrise or sunset?

I would say, sunrise coz it marks the starting of a brand new day. I find sunset kinda melancholic.

16. Do you want to live until you're 100 years old?

No. If I live till 100 years old means I'll have to see all my love ones go one by one boo >.<

17. Is a flat stomach important to you?

Uhuh! XD

18. What body part of the opposite sex is the sexiest?

Shoulder, Arms, Hands, Mustache XD

19. When watching scary movies, are the lights on or off?

Off?

20. Do you believe in magic?

Not really wei.

21. Do you believe in ghosts?

Spirits, yeah. (Tay, 2008)

22. Do you like to watch cartoons?

Yesh Yesh but I don't really fancy animated cartoons now. I like those old-school hand-drawn ones better. =) Like Mickey Mouse!

23. At what age did you find out Santa Claus isn't real?

My conscience knows that he doesn't exist but somehow, I would like to think that he actually exist, even until now. heeee!

24. Do you write poems?

Haha no I don't write them. I enjoy reading sometimes though.

25. Do you snore?

I don't think so.

26. You sleep more on your back, front or sides?

Sides! I fall asleep on either side every night!

27. Would you have a poodle or a rottweiler?

Poodle!

28. Are you basically a happy person?

Basically, yes! =)

29. Are you tired?

uhm, now? not really =) more of hungry!

30. Did you drink anything with caffeine?

Nope!

31. How do you take your coffee?

I don't always drink coffee but when I do, I like it hot =) like how I like any other beverages to be too hehe.

32. How many landlines/cellphones do you have in your house?

Landline - 2

Cellphone -5

33. Do you get along with your parents?

Yeaps!

34. Do you smoke?

Eeeek nope!

35. Do you have a kitty?

NO!!!

36. Have you ever had a birthday party?

Yeaps!!

37. What do you do when you're sad?

Sleep, eat, chill in sister's room, watch dramas/ movies, talk to somebody who can take my mind off things.

38. What do you need most now?

Food!

39. What song are you listening to now?

You Belong With Me- Taylor Swift

40. What are you craving right now?

Anything la I'm starving!