Social Busted

Great! Its Saturday afternoon and I'm sitting in my room right now, BLOGGING!
What an adventurous life I have. Everybody's out and I'm alone at home. Stuck in my bedroom with Gossip Girl and a couple of movies. pffft!

Helloooooo! Friends! where are you guys??? *roll eyes* (conscience: psss! midterm's next week!)

Oh yea. Talking about friends, I have a good bad news, or a bad good news from the bestest friend. Its a bad good news to me. I've just received a call when I was watching something. I was blur and I couldn't recognize who it was until I put down the phone. After the conversation, I felt like I'm being dumped by my bf. ok stop speculating. I don't have a bf, it just feels like that.

but I did congratulate her. *shrugs*

All the best to you. Cheers!

mere disappointment

I didn't do very well for last semester.
To look back what I did during the semester,
All I did was some nonsense.

Thinking about things that are not realistic,
Waiting for some miracle to happen which are obviously not going to,
Trying to grasp onto something that will not go anywhere further.

There Alexandra Goh Siau Juinn. You happy now? What a fruitful semester you had!

I am disappointed. Not because of those miracle that never happen, not because of some stupid dream which never came real and not because of the things that stayed the same all year round without a single progress.

Its because of me. I am disappointed with myself, for indulging myself in merely nothing.
I am not going to make empty promises anymore. I'm not going to say "From this semester onwards, I will work hard and be a nerd."

All I can say is, I'll try. I'll try to forget, forgive and for goodness sake get over with that shit.

Wish me luck.

At times like this...

I've been sick for more than 2 weeks. Gastric seriously sucks like hell.
I can't even shop properly man. At times, I can't even stand up properly!
And I need to drink alkaline/antacid. Sucks.
Worst thing is, I can't eat properly! I can't eat too much, and I can't eat too little at the same time. How? *hang neck*

I always have a problem. I need to eat a lot, every now and then, in order for my brain to function properly. Kit Kat is the best. But now that I can't eat too much, my brain went coo-coo I tell you! When people talk to me I need about 5 seconds to digest what they're saying only I can response. Stupid right?!!

Anyways, I've been better now but I look like a real-life, walking ghost. Bad hair week bad skin week bad weight week bad eye week! I don't have shinny eyes anymore T__T My weight is damn freaky now ok! I wonder if it hits as low as 40kg or not! I suddenly lost so much weight that I thought I'm aneroxic or something. I can't even wear my jeans! Yea I know its good to lose weight teehee but not like that ok! I really felt like I was going to die of some chronic incurable disease. And dad still have to remind me that I look pale I look pale like I don't have a mirror in my room! raaaawwrrr!

Short sem's finally fully started. Full timetable now T___T monday-friday also got class T___T

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At times like this, I'm grateful that you're around.
At times like this, I'm happy that you're the one to make me smile.
At times like this, I really want to show you how much I like to have you in my life.
At times like this, I'm so contained with happiness in me that I'm going to burst any minute.
At times like this, I really want to tell you how you have painted my life so wonderfully.

but...
At times like this, I begin to question eternity.
At times like this, I begin to wonder if its for real.
At times like this, I begin to hesitate.
At times like this, I'm more sensitive.
At times like this, I feel lost.

therefore...
At times like this, I need you to be there more.
At times like this, I begin to withdraw myself from this game.

and then...
At times like this, there will be a period of awkward silence.
At times like this, I begin to miss you more.

however...
At times like this, I don't know where you are.
At times like this, I don't know where to find you.
At times like this, I feel that you're not there anymore.

so...
At times like this, I write emo post.
At times like this, I hope you read it.
At times like this, I hope you know this is for you.

but I know...
At times like this, you'll appear out of nowhere again.
At times like this, you're the one to make me laugh again.

and so...
At times like this, I do not know what to think anymore.

Rocks!

This Saturday was a tad bit special. I didn't go shopping. Ok I did a little bit of shopping since I was in 1 Utama. Who wouldn't? But the main purpose I was there was not to go shopping! That was my first time visiting Camp 5 at level 5 of 1 Utama, right outside Neway, the karaoke place. What's in Camp 5? teehee! Rock climbing yo!

Our trainer of the day was Wan. He's cool. All 5 of us were in one group. Kareena and Lydia from America join us since there's only three of us.

For beginners, we did a 2 or 3 meter climb. It was, easy, not! haha but it was my first time so its a bit scary when I need to jump down from a 2 meter fake rock!

And then we moved on to climb a 12 meter high wall with Autobelays. The ropes work automatically so we only need to have some easy skills to get down.

That's Andrea and 10 year old Lydia

Hey I can be Tomb Raider too ^^

That's Julius

its high. Really high.

I only managed to climb like 11 meters or so. It was tiring.

I got stuck. That's when Wan went "put ur left foot on the yellow rock! put your right hand on that big purple one!" and all I did was look out of the window to admire houses of Damansara Utama.

After that was the 8 meter wall. The first castle wall was easy. The tough part was coming down. It's manual. We were tied to Wan and he need to pull/release the rope for us beneath. That's like the real rock climbing. So when we were coming down, we had to like walk on the wall, like how we usually walk on the floor, backwards. I like it. Feels damn cool!

The second castle wall was tough. The hardest of all walls. Its corner wall. And we need to climb with strategy. Everyone got stuck up there and couldn't get any further without Wan's instructions.

Well that practically wraps up the Saturday without much shopping. My upper body's muscle ache like hell now pfffft!

E.M.O

I'm very emo and hyper now hoooow!
there's so much in my mind. But I dont even wana think about them.
Chatting with friends will just take my mind off these emo stuff a bit.
But once I get into my car, or go to sleep, these thoughts intrude and I wana cry.
I wish I can cry. But there's always no tears.
I'm tearless how...
Why am I tearless~ Give me some tears please~
It'll be so much better after crying but nothing will change
But I still wana cry cannot ah! But what's worse than wanting to cry but cannot cry~
*heavy sigh*

teeheeheeheehee!

weeeei people guess what!!!
I did an impromptu presentation just now and I din puke! *feels proud*
there's not even a single complain to Sara and there's no tingling sensation in my stomach! *feels damn proud* but I talked super fast coz i thought they were in a hurry to end the class *i was!*

coz I was so damn bored in the three hours tutorial THREEEEE HOURS OKAAAAAY!!
listening to people present and most of the time I dont know what they're talking about cause they brought up things like Maslow's Hierarchy which I totally forget there's actually something like that and the word "self-actualization" actually comes from this hierarchy T___T

sitting in the cold room... wearing name tags... omggggg the tutor made us wear name tag so that she can give us marks for participation. *smart*
ish... its a good day its a good day. and I went to work! finally!

oh ya guess what!! Sara did something very stupid until she made me laugh until i wana pee! She was hypnotized by the bus! ^^

one big question of the day!
why is everybody having boyfriend????
T_____T i dont wana be a spinster heeeeelp!

one thought of the day!
how does a friendship/relationship work when only one party is giving and all the other party do is taking?
tell me about it man~

one rant of the day!
i really wana shout "SHUT UUUUUUUP!!!!" to Lindsay Lohan's song "Bossy" which goes "i'm just a lil bossy~ i'm just a lil bossy" even though its midnight already. gossssh dont they have anymore nice and meaningful lyrics to put in!!!!! like... using the bawang to represent a person's heart kinda thing?!!

xoxo

I Died

I died once...

then I died again...

why is he like that. why his fingers so long T_____T why i listen 1000000 times oso not sien wan~

Bawang

ok la this song's out for quite a while adi. But the more I listen the more I wana cry T_____T hi people lets cry with me. Lyrics with Translation for the English people. lets cry!

洋葱- 杨宗纬.mp3

洋葱 - 楊宗緯

如果你眼神能够为我
片刻的降临
如果你能听到 心碎的声音
沉默的守护著你
沉默的等奇迹
沉默的让自己 像是空气

大家都吃著聊著笑著
今晚多开心
最角落里的我 笑得多合群
盘底的洋葱像我
永远是调味品
偷偷的看著你
偷偷的隐藏著自己

如果你愿意一层一层
一层的剥开我的心
你会发现 你会讶异
你是我 最压抑
最深处的秘密

如果你愿意一层一层
一层的剥开我的心
你会鼻酸 你会流泪
只要你能 听到我
看到我的全心全意

听你说你和你的他们
暧昧的空气
我和我的绝望 装得很风趣
我就样一颗洋葱
永远是配角戏
多希望能与你有一秒
专属的剧情

如果你愿意一层一层
一层的剥开我的心
你会发现 你会讶异
你是我 最压抑
最深处的秘密
如果你愿意一层一层
一层的剥开我的心
你会鼻酸 你会流泪
只要你能 听到我
看到我的全心全意

你会鼻酸 你会流泪
只要你能 听到我
看到我的全心全意

ok I can't find the English Translation. maybe I should translate it myself someday. Someday. when I become very poetic. Its so nice. (psssaraleongitsyourstory)

ok I can't resist. I shall translate the title. Its.. Bawang. uh... what's bawang in English!!!! ok whatever its 1am in the morning brain not working!!!!! this entry shall be edited.

nite bye muax!

the bawang is basically someone's heart la so if u wana peel off the heart and see how a person feel towards another person its like peeling the bawang it'll make you cry. T_____T
why the lyrics so nice..........................................T____________T

Freaky!

wei I must blog about this. I was having fever last night then morning wake up no more adi. Then gastric for the whole day. Then at night I fever again. Then I received a message.

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Tin: wei I oso fever how T__T
Alexa: har why like that?! I fever plus gastric how.
Tin: I OSO FEVER PLUS GASTRIC! WHY LIKE THAT WTF

wei why izit so freaky! besties oso won sick oso sick together gua. same time sick never mind. why same type of sickness! 1 sickness same never mind. why both sickness oso same!!! somemore she's in Subang and I'm in Segambut! why like that! T__T

Random

The Queen is sick! *puke* there's no strength left to even open a bottle to drink water.
Diarrhea, fever, gastric, heartburn, PMS... ... kill me please X.X

I have nothing to do or rather, no strength to do anything except typing. So I decided to do this tag.
Its easy.

8 Random Facts about Myself
1. I always think that I have some kinda disease or cancer. ok this is crazy but you'll never know right?!

2. I don't have a yellow top.

3. I talk to other cars when I'm driving even though I know they can't hear me. I'll go "wei what is your problem!" when a car tries to cut my line.

4. I can't stand a taller vehicle in front of me when I'm driving. Lorries, buses, vans. Sometimes even the Kenari irritates me cause they block my view. I shall drive a bulldozer next time.

5. I like to say "hello" when the phone rings and before I pick up the call. I don't know why la.

6. I like to use the word "how" at the end of every sentence. (ex: I'm sick how. The song is very nice how. I wana go watch movie how. She is very pretty how. He is very ugly how. I'm very sexy how.) It means nothing really. People who knows me knows la.

7. I will wana vomit before every presentation but I have no problem performing (dancing acting singing).

8. When I start doing something I cannot stop. When I start a drama, I'll need to finish the whole thing in a day. When I start a novel, I don't even wana stop and eat. When I start drinking water, I cannot stop pee-ing. When I start eating chocolate, I'll finish everything in no time. When I start accelerating, I don't like to stop (who likes to stop!). When I start blogging, I cannot stop (thus a few posts a day and sometimes no posts at all). When I start talking, I cannot stop (if you stop talking to me I'll irritate you, like using the eraser to write Sara Leong on her table until she wana slap me).

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one more big random fact. I think I have menopause symptoms for Pre-Menstrual Symptoms. how?? T__T
1. Hot flashes. I keep having hot flashes hahahahahaha! ok maybe its the weather.
2. Fatigue. Ok I wana sleep every now and then.
3. Hairloss. I definitely have hair loss I tell you! I keep sweeping and sweeping my room's floor but still got hair dropping T__T
4. Difficulty concentrating. Maybe I really got ADHD. hope abnormal psych helps explain this!!
5. Memory lapses. Omg seriously. I cant remember the details of the movie I watched last week.
6. Irritabilty. I think this one PMS oso got la hor.
7. Migraines. Uhuh!
8. Burning tongue. Maybe I'm heaty. but I have very flowery tongue when I'm heaty. seriously. Like I have some disease or something.

ok la I only have 8 out of 35 symptoms. no menopause no menopause.

One of the Saturdays

We went Batu Caves!!! It was intended to be a few friendly gathering but somehow it became a 6s4 gathering but on the day itself, it went back to the original plan. phew.

One Chinese taxi driver think we're stupid and wanted to charge us RM30 to go to Batu Caves from Kepong. *kills him* Our taxi fare going there is only RM8.90 by meter ok!!!!

when we finally reached, aah~ a very pleasant view.

One of the temples

Yee Mun and Tin (Kuantan and Sibu wtf ^^)

I was so happy.

ready... set..go!
climb climb climb

climb climb climb

climb climb climb
still very happy

some statues

*phew* at the 100th step

finally! is this place holy or what!

some Indian tourists^^

Yee Mun and Tin checking out some wordings written on the rock in year 198x

the mountain

then we went to drink coconut and listen to Indian songs which goes "dididididi dedededede dududududu dadadadada dododododo"

then *snap snap* a weird Indian with his DSLR came shooting pics of us and after a few minutes

We're on the TV!!!

then we played with this hamsap snake
keep wanting to French Kiss me and Yee Mun *cuts his bloody tongue*and keep squeezing our neck

then we went to a mamak below and had lunch

then bye bye~
a happee happee day.

A Lazy Long Post

very lazy to tell what have I been doing during the week but picture says it all. Lets start from the most recent to the pre-exam days.
*pic spam!

1 Utama Day

went 1 Utama with Siow Wei. A quick one. Damn early in the morning lazy camwhore. But still...

Dress fever.

*please ignore the face and hair coz I just woke up ok?! ok!

Somerset Bay. wei this dress looks very nice but I dono why I look so weird wearing it!

still my Dorothy Perkins nicer bluek!

Forever 21
I tried this in Pavilion before leh. But I dont dare to buy coz I wont wear ^^

ahh! this look very nice okay!
Siow Wei keep peer pressure me to buy and its freaking cheap (for a dress) and its just nice on me.

nice nice nice nice nice! but I DID NOT BUY ANYTHING ok! except for a RM2.30 roti bakar breakfast. aahh.. I like my self-control! if not I'll have to eat roti bakar for the rest of the month.

KLCC Day

went KLCC with mummy. aah long time never go shopping with her.

Anna Sui make up mirror
Anna Sui make up range

Anna Sui Dolly Girl perfume. I feel like a spoilt child T__TChinoz makan *i forgot the name of this dish*
Bangsar/Mutiara Damansara Day

Right after exam, met up with Tin and we...

had banana leaf ricewent Cats Whiskers

went Bangsar Village

went Ikano
she tried glasses

while I was busy kissing then we changed into our newly bought clothes just for fun

then Dai Tou Pok and Linz camethen we went Italianesethen we hanged out at the beautiful romantic bridge connecting the curve and cineleisure

then we camwhored until we have over 60 pictures T__T

Ikea Studying Day

Sara and I went to Ikea's cafeteria to study coz they offer free beverages in the morning with unlimited refill. How cool is that. The environment is so nice. Several other students were there studying too. Like library like that ^^

we camwhored coz she was so thrilled with her webcamshe studied while...

I watched F.R.I.E.N.D.S and laughed until my cheeks got muscle adi.

I studied too! my pretty notes

our table. studios huh!

*phew* I feel a bit the bimbo cause most of the time I've been doing a lot of shopping shopping and shopping. ahh wellz... who cares. Not like I'm going to blog about me staying at home watching TV and eat dinner and go work and read books and play piano and sleep and go Jap class. bluek!

-the end-

I'm alive and I'm a happy girl!
Dreadful 3rd of May Saturday morning is finally over and went out with Tin, Linz and Vince, uh... shopping? more of walking and finding places to buy flip flop for my freaking painful legs I think *oops* The Curve sucks T__T my purse sucks too T_____T

I vanished into thin air for a few days and made friends worried. haha! Its lucky that they did not go report to the police for missing person T__T They thought I diculik or died in a car crash on Saturday night. You can now see what drama can make me do. I can don't talk to anybody for a few days. No online, no phone calls, no outings. Only the TV, food and the couch. aaahh... how nice.

anyways, was watching "Sorry, I love you". Yea a bit the outdated dont give ah. Last time I did not watch the whole thing completely and was very curious about what's going to happen to Mr. Cha.
He died T__T his life is so sad. I cried and cried and cried and cried until like I'm going to die like that. And I went to work with two bulky puffy eyes.
Its so sad. Its about this Mr. Cha who never got any love from his mother and was always yearning to find his mother one day. They were separated since he's born and the mother didnt even know he exist ok. she was told that he died when she gave birth to him. what a show to watch when mother's day is arriving. and a very stupid love story in it. The stupid girl who looks like a rabbit died in the end and I was like wtfffff. Beside Mr. Cha's grave somemore. *am i making any sense?*
I bet people who didnt watch wont understand what am I talking but whatever. I still wana crap about it.
Anyways, my point is, its so saaaaaaaaaaaad. and its not like any typical bimbo korean movie with a rich, arrogant guy and a poor nice girl and they fall in love and live happily ever after that kind. Its a poor guy and a poor girl hahahahahaha! sigh. I watch adi I keep wana sigh. Why is his life like that. I bet there's real people who has this kinda fate also. Why their life is so different from us. Why God never make things fair for them T__T

bye bye off to cry more T__T

<3

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

Always Be My Baby-David Cook.mp3

I'll always be your babaaay. you'll always be my babaaay. we'll always be each other's babbaaaay.

*burns book*
*goes back to sleep*